One tough night in Gaza

Six people are sitting in the living room. Each has his or her phone in hand, with his earphones on, following the news on what is happening in Gaza and Jerusalem. The most urgent question: Where will the next bomb hit? The house feels like it is shaking. At midnight, the sky flares red and my mother nervously tells us to remove our earphones. When we hesitate, she panics and shouts, “Remove them now!” She is afraid the “stereo sound”—the blaring of the news and the boom of the bombs—will harm our ears. Now alarmed ourselves, we all obey, silently looking at each other.

My younger sister, Nesma, a lawyer, suggests we all lay down, out of sight, since the light of the shells is reflecting on our uncle’s house next door. Seconds later, our house feels like it is shaking again, and this time the windows and doors join the party.

After 15 mins, things are calm again, although we can still hear the drones. Nesma offeres to make some tea and I say I will select some nice music to cover the bombing. We need to calm ourselves as well. I play a love song by Um Kulthum, the iconic Egyptian singer. My father even sang! “Oh, my little girls, you reminded me of lovely and beautiful days,” he says. My mother smiles into the book she is reading.

Soon, however, the bombing accelerates. Exhausted, my mother tries to catch a little sleep, but she cannot. She is worried about our neighbor, who lost their mother just days ago due to COVID-19. She calls the girls and chats so they won’t be so afraid. But we are all afraid. Still…if the Israeli occupation has taught us anything, it’s how to hide your fears. Panic is contagious.

It is a long and tough night. We cannot sleep. Just before dawn, we have our suhur, the meal Muslims  eat during Ramadan before starting the day’s fast. This time, it is only dates, some cheese and tea. Due to bombing, it had not been safe to go to the market. (We buy food daily because the frequent power outages these days make refrigeration difficult.)

My body is so cold. I don’t know why. The weather is warm, yet I am shivering. Maybe it’s because I am suppressing my worries and fears. I layer on clothes, but it doesn’t bring me ease. I go to my mother and hug her. I finally feel some peace, although not safe.

I put myself to work. First, I re-arrange my room so my bed is in the middle—away from any glass that could fly if the windows break. I also open the window and door, to lessen the air pressure and reduce the chance of being hurt by debris. And since I am a fan of the mugs my students give me as gifts, I take them off the shelf so they won’t fall and break. Now maybe my room will “survive.”

Then I choose movies, music and books that can fill our days if the attacks continue. I also call my friends and arrange to create “rooms” on social media so we can have virtual “sleep-overs.” I also call my sister, who is married and mother of a lovely newborn boy who has never heard the sounds of bombing before. I want to make sure she and her son, Ibrabim, are ok. At least he is too young to understand what is happening.

Finally, and this is a very important, I vow to avoid all pictures and videos of the bombing and dead bodies. This is my way of protecting myself from the bad dreams that haunted me during previous wars.

Still, I know I can’t ignore them. I am inside the circle. Pray for us



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