
A year of fear
A year of sleeplessness
A year of breathlessness
A year of loss
A year of nightmares
A year of being dead
A year of getting killed
Day by day by day
365 days
Martyr after martyr after martyr
Silence
Bombs
Ambulance calls:
Your friend was martyred.
Israel cut the connections
Strike in the neighborhood
Run, run—
Who died?
Who’s alive?
No news
Is anyone alive?
Where’s my dad?
Is there any news?
Has anyone seen him?
How is my uncle?
Don’t lie — he’s martyred, yes?
I can feel it
Exile
So many people
So much loneliness
Panic attacks
Loss after loss after loss
Muhannad, Ibraheem, Khaled, Farizah, Yousef, Rushdi, Shahad, Mohammed Hamo, Reefy,
Abu Daqqa, Marah, Osamah, Abu Altayif, Belal, Wafaa, Khaled & Saleh, Kudaih
Massacres & more than 45 thousand martyrs
365 days
Crying
Can’t shout
Want to talk
Can’t talk
Can’t breathe
365 days
Green home turned grey
Blue sea turned red
Blood all around
Bodies in the streets
Your beloved ones are gone
You are gone
365 days of being gone
I don’t know me
I can’t recognize myself
I need to breathe
A year of being lost
A year of being dead
I need to breathe
